Shipping Up To Pawtucket

Sometimes, the fantasy baseball gods smile on you.

Oh, not on me. They haven't smiled on the Darling Asteroids all season.

I feel like a confused boyfriend: Me and the fantasy gods are apparently in a fight, and I have no idea what I did wrong.

But they've certainly taken a shining to my roommate Kyle.

First his best pitcher, Cliff Lee, gets traded from Seattle to the front-running, offensively-gifted Rangers, ensuring him more run support and many more wins.

And now Dustin Pedroia, his starting second baseman who's currently on the DL, is having a few rehab starts in Pawtucket, RI...just a hop and a skip from us.

What better chance to go and see baseball's fourth best second baseman in action?

Hoping to witness some whacky minor league hijinks a la Bull Durham or Major League 3: Back to the Minors, we piled into a car and were off.

About an hour later we arrived in a suburban Rhode Island town, greeted by a wooden sign reading, "Welcome to historic Pawtucket."

Kyle's bearded face twisted with puzzlement.

"Why is Pawtucket so historic?" he asked.

You know why.

We parked and strolled towards McCoy Stadium as the PawSox prepared to do battle with the Buffalo Bison, the New York Mets Triple-A affiliate.

As per contractual agreement, we weren't within 50 feet of the stadium before hearing the Dropkick Murphys' signature song.

Will Smith did it with "Miami."

Jay-Z did it with "Empire State of Mind."

And now the Murphys have written Boston's default "get-pumped sports anthem," ensuring they live on forever in local lore and are invited to play state fairs for years to come.

Well played, Dropkicks.

We sat in the upper deck along the third base line, the perfect spot to view everyone's favorite diminutive defenseman in action.

Unfortunately, Little Boy Pete was listed as the DH, robbing us of a chance to see his trademark grit and determination in the field.

He doesn't stop grounders with his glove. He stops them with his heart.

Regardless, a mostly sellout crowd was ready for some baseball.

But excitement quickly turned to sadness as Pedroia bounced into an inning-ending double play in the first, weakly smacking a pitch that Brandon Phillips would have scorched off the IHOP sign in right for a double.

Still, minor league baseball remains a great, cheap alternative to the big leagues where you can see stars of tomorrow as well as a few familiar faces.

Former Cubs pitcher Rich Hill was on the bump for the PawSox, and former catcher Michael Barrett pulled backstop duty for the Bison.

And the once great Carlos Delgado, he of the 473 career homeruns, hit cleanup for Pawtucket.

Sadly, he watched two fastballs go by before flailing at an 0-2 slider. It was a grim reminder that when star athletes fall, they fall hard.

Seeing the formerly feared Delgado in the minors just didn't feel right. I kept thinking:

"Does he really think he can still hang in the majors? Or is he holding on for a few more paychecks?"

Either way, the decision to walk away from the game is his and his alone, regardless of how far he falls and how painful it is to watch.

Go polish your Silver Slugger awards, Carlos. Everything will be OK.

Meanwhile, our Napoleonic warrior flies out meekly to right on a pitch that Ian Kinsler would have absolutely roped up the middle for a single.

The game was tied 1-1 in the 5th until Gil Velazquez, a career minor leaguer who definitely did not win the 2007 AL Rookie of the Year award, hit a two-run bomb into the PawSox bullpen to put them ahead 3-1.

Finally things are looking up for 'ole Gil.

The crowd was loving it, especially one little boy seated behind us.

Experiencing the age-old bond of fathers taking their sons to ballgames, Junior was asking the most adorable questions.

"Daddy, who's that man?"

"Daddy, did we win yet?"

"Daddy, how come Pedroia won the 2008 MVP when Justin Morneau had six more homeruns and 46 more RBIs in a lineup that wasn't nearly as good as the Red Sox?"

Kids say the darndest things.

Meanwhile, Captain Shortstack flies out to left, daintily lofting a pitch that Chase Utley would have totally deposited into the right field bleachers.

For those who have not yet realized, Dustin Pedroia is tiny. His 5-ft-9 listing is generous to say the least.

It's a shame he doesn't play shortstop. The jokes would write themselves.

The fans continued to root, root, root for the home team and were rewarded with a 3-1 victory.

We throw on Guided By Voices' "Alien Lanes" and sit in mostly silence on the ride home. As we motor away from McCoy Stadium, frontman Robert Pollard serenades us:

"You can't lie to yourself/That it's the chance of a lifetime."

And that's the best thing about minor league baseball. It's about watching guys who are so close to their dreams, they can feel it.

It's an intersection of careers...up-and-coming prospects sharing lockers with grizzled vets, all hoping for the same phone call.

I imagine Dustin Pedroia in the PawSox clubhouse, smiling to himself, knowing he's shipping up to Boston in a few days.

The youngsters gather around as he regales them with tales of being in the show, where you hit white balls for batting practice and never handle your own luggage.

A faint smirk disappears from Carlos Delgado's face. He knows his best days are behind him.

But hope springs eternal for the likes of Josh Reddick and Lars Anderson, who know their best days are still ahead.

The minors are about learning. They're about listening. They're about taking your hacks and waiting your turn.

As we go up, we go down.

They're Killing Independent Jacob

Despite what your mommy always told you, the world is messed up.

I'm sure when you were little she would tuck you in at night and read you a cute little bedtime story.

Probably some talking turtle and squirrel having a whacky adventure. Probably a lesson about sharing at the end. The details aren't important.

And after the story she'd kiss your little forehead and tell you that you're different, that you're special.

That you can be anything you want to be.

But most importantly, she'd tell you that if you were honest and kind and tried your darndest, everything would always work out.

Well, bad news, Johnboy: Your mommy was a damn fool.

What an idiot.

The truth, friends, is that the world is not black and white. It is often gray and murky, cold and unforgiving.

Sometimes, it's just plain mean.

And no amount of good deeds will negate the fact that someday, we're all going to have to make choices.

Choices with no clear cut right or wrong. Choices which, regardless of the outcome, will leave you feeling hollow and unfulfilled.

For me, that day is today.

A day when my allegiance will be put to the ultimate test.

A day when my moral fibers will be strained, twisted, hung out and beaten worse than the Pittsburgh Pirates on a 10-game road trip.

On one hand, the Darling Asteroids sit ten points out of a playoff spot with four weeks to play. This season is far from over.

With Mo Rivera, Michael Young and Adam Wainwright joining the fray, we believe we have what it takes to make a late run.

We have a fire in our eyes and hunger in our bellies. We are determined. We are strong.

No one can tell us we're wrong.

On the other hand, my hometown Phillies are smack dab in the middle of the NL East hunt, their traditional second half surge pulling them within games of Atlanta.

With less than two months to play, every win is vital.

Every double down the line, every seeing-eye single, every late-inning rally could be the difference between an early vacation and October glory.

And therein lies the problem.

Today, the Phillies play the second game of a three game set versus the Los Angeles Dodgers.

If you know anything about me, anything at all, I believe you can see where this is headed.

I just wish it didn't have to come to this.

I hoped this wouldn't happen.

I prayed to Jesus, prayed to Yahweh, prayed to Allah. Heck, I even threw Vishnu and Buddha a bone.

Like Rickey Henderson in his prime, I had all the bases covered.

But it was no use. There is nothing more I can do.

Despite all my best efforts, my two worlds will collide.

Everyone's Favorite Man toes the rubber tonight against the Phillies...and I have the biggest decision of my life to make.

This chick had it easy.

It's a choice every fantasy GM has to make at some point during the season: Who do I root for?

If this contest were early in the season, it'd be no contest at all: Let's go Phils. Sorry, Mufasa.

But these are the dog days of August, and while the game isn't a must-win for Philly, this week is certainly a must-win for the Darling Asteroids.

In a perfect world, Chad would twirl a gem of a ballgame and the Braves would also lose, costing the Phillies no ground in the standings.

Or, in a different perfect world, Chad would go 8 2/3, strikeout 20 batters but lose 1-0 on a Carlos Ruiz walkoff.

The Asteroids would get some stats, but the Phils would get the W.

But spoiler alert, friends: We don't live in a perfect world, and there's little doubt how this saga plays out.

First, Chad will get shelled. Something like seven runs in 2 1/3 innings. The Darlings' ERA and WHIP will skyrocket.

Staked to a comfortable lead, Charlie Manuel will go to his bullpen early to preserve Roy Oswalt, who's no Roy Halladay.

The Dodgers will slowly chip away at the Phils' pen, culminating with a two-run homer off Brad Lidge in the 9th.

I would hope, as a shred of silver lining, that the perfect Matt Kemp hits this tater, resulting in something that resembles good news for the struggling Asteroids.

But alas. It's probably going to be Casey Blake. I hate my life.

No win for Chad, no win for the Phils, and the Braves will likely hurl two perfect games against Houston to boot.

I think back to my worst fantasy defeat, which luckily resulted in a moment of real triumph.

On the last day of the 2007 season, Jimmy Rollins stole two bases, scored two runs and helped secure the Phillies first postseason berth since I was seven years old.

J-Roll's big day, however, knocked me out of first place in a league I'd spent all summer dominating.

I was momentarily furious. Jimmy, how could you do this to me?!

That's what you get.

But of course, I couldn't stay mad at him for long.

Brett Myers soon froze Wily Mo Pena on a knee-buckling curveball in the 9th, and a joyous dogpile of red and white ensued in the center of Citizens Bank Park.

So that's the constant struggle a fantasy GM must endure.

Maybe your fantasy team is cruising towards a title. Maybe your actual team is seated comfortably in first...but the two rarely coincide.

Tonight's game, for me at least, is a win-lose situation.

Regardless of the outcome, I'll likely have a reason to fist pump...but also a reason to sulk. I just wish I could have it both ways.

I wish I could have my baseball cake and eat it too.

I wish Chad could get his tenth win of the season, yet somehow the Phillies end up closer to a 4th straight NL East crown.

But it's not that simple. Love never is.

It's a freaking battlefield, man.

Wheelin' and Dealin'

It's getting late early for the Darling Asteroids.

An overall score of 89-105-10, seated in 9th place with four weeks of regular season play left. Only the top six teams make it to the playoffs.

Last season we made it to the finals, tying Joba Rules 6-6 but losing the ERA tiebreaker.

We could almost taste the immortality,eternal glory nuzzled comfortably against us...but it was a quick wink and a nod before breaking our darling hearts.

What a tease.

This season has been a different story. For the first time in my five years as a pretend baseball GM, we're in danger of missing the playoffs.

They're starting to say I don't have what it takes anymore.

That they appreciate my years of service, but the Darlings need someone who can finally get them over the hump.

Rumors that management interviewed some hotshot fantasy football GM cannot be confirmed or denied, but just last night ownership gave me the dreaded "vote of confidence."

So in a last gasp attempt to save the season---and possibly my job---two blockbuster trades have been made in the last two weeks.

First, we shipped the man who would be King Felix to Antarctic Arsenal in exchange for Rangers 3B Michael Young and Yankees closer Mariano Rivera.

Former Twins closer Jon Rauch was rendered useless and expendable at the reality trade deadline, opening the door for the Asteroids acquire the greatest closer that has ever lived.

Young is having a good year as well, hitting 16 homeruns, knocking in 64 and scoring 74 runs. A nice little upgrade for a struggling offense.

And boy, has our offense been struggling, thanks in no small part to Hanley Lollygagging Ramirez...so it was time for him to go.

His numbers this season have been comparable to White Sox SS Alexei Ramirez (.280-50-58 for Hanley, .289-43-53 for Alexei).

So we sent Hanley and Placido Polanco to the Space Turtles for NL Cy Young contender Adam Wainwright, he of the 2.07 ERA and 16 wins.

There's nothing more exciting than hearing about someone else's fantasy trades, right?

You're on the edge of your seat right now. You love this.

Here's hoping this new blood can inject some life into our Darlings and surge us into the playoffs.

This season is growing old far quicker than we expected.

In a few short weeks it could be over, done with, gone before its time...a brilliant flash in the night sky that burnt out before it could even live its life.

Luckily for us, this is fake baseball.

It should come with a disclaimer: No actual lives or feelings were hurt in the making of these trades.

The same cannot be said for some. Take poor J.A. Happ, for example.

Life was good for the man who finished second in Rookie of the Year voting last season, until Charlie Manuel called him into his office one fateful day.

"Kid," I imagine Cholly said in his slow-paced southern-drawl while chomping on a tuna sandwich, "it's great to have you back from the DL. You were a big part of this team last season and we missed you."

"But don't get comfortable. You live in Texas now."

And just like that Happ is uprooted, shipped to the bottom-feeding Astros, likely never to sniff the playoffs until Houston goes through another "rebuilding year" (probably next season) and he gets traded to a contender.

Can you imagine?

It's easy to not feel sorry for these blokes since they're stupid rich and all, but they've got it rough sometimes.

Do me a favor: Close your eyes and imagine you're a famous athlete.

(No, don't really close your eyes. How would you read the rest of this fine post? Come on, man...stay focused)

But imagine you're an athlete. For argument's sake, let's say you're New England Patriots quarterback Tom Brady.

Congratulations, you're handsome.

But your day at the office consists of 300-lb. men trying to annihilate you at every given opportunity.

You also have to spend time before and after work answering inane questions from media members who absolutely can't do what you do, yet still have some excellent suggestions on how you can improve.

So that's the life you lead.

You're under intense scrutiny and pressure from various avenues on a daily basis, and it's other men's jobs to make sure you do your job poorly.

But there's one more thing to consider, one thing that gets lost in the shuffle for these poor millionaires.

One thing that makes the life of a celebrity all the more bizarre and, in a way, sad.

If you're a famous athlete like Tom Brady, you can't go to the mall.

You just can't. Not even for a quick stop at Old Navy.

Don't even think about it.

You wish.

A host of the basic activities the rest of us enjoy are off limits to our favorite stars because they're going to be swarmed by fans and photographers the second they show their chiseled faces.

A lot of people won't feel sorry for trade bait like Ted Lilly or Lance Berkman, but I sort of do.

It's a strange, cold life these gentlemen lead sometimes.

Maybe I'm just getting older and wiser. Maybe I'm just more empathetic and advanced than some.

Maybe I'm just trying to deflect the fact that the Darling Asteroids suck more than "The Last Airbender."

Still, if you ever run into the likes of Cliff Lee on the street or in an Applebee's, have a heart. Give him a hug.

He's fighting a tough battle called life, just like you and I.

It will help him sleep better on his bed made of money in his house made of gold.